I'm a bum

Well I've gone along time again without posting in here. I really do plan to start keeping up with my blogs more. But right now, I'm goin for a shower and then to grab a bite to eat. So blogging will have to wait until later today or tomorrow... or maybe next week or next month... hopefully before next year I'll add another entry.

Well...

What is going on with me... all I seem to want to do is sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep...
But on the positive side, I've been back on the gum for awhile now... here's to staying smoke-free for good this time...
Interesting thing... I was eating in my sleep last night... seriously... I woke up chewing on a granola bar... had a second wrapper next to me and a banana on my night stand.... not the first time that's happened tho... I woke up to find myself eating Little Debbie Swiss Rolls several times in the past... I don't keep them in the house anymore... anyway, I guess it's better than waking up to find myself smoking a cigarette, which did happen to me years ago when I was in the army...lol.
Well, I gotta run to the store for cat food... God, I hope I don't ever wake up eating that...

I was weak...

Well... I'm smoking again... but only because it was easier to run up to the party store and get cigarettes than to hop a bus to the pharmacy for Nicorette... I know... excuses, excuses... well anyway, I'll be back on the gum again effective this afternoon... will be away for the weekend... back on monday.

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I like this guys pen and ink drawings cuz it reminds me of the stuff I doodle when I'm on the phone.

But the question is...

Do I want to live longer if it means denying myself something I crave so much???

Two weeks without a smoke

And the past 4 days have been the hardest. Thought it would be getting easier by now... not harder. I so miss smoking. But I'm still not letting myself go buy a pack. I'm sure I wouldn't enjoy a cigarette as much as I think I would anyway. But I've smoked for half of my life. Cigarettes are like a dear old friend. Been there for me from the time I woke up until the time I went to sleep. I'm getting all teary eyed reminiscing.

I've quit smoking!

Been without a smoke for nearly a week now. Don't know if it'll last or not. But in any case, it sucks to have a blog captioned 'a look at life through a cloud of cigarette smoke' when I'm trying my best to stay smoke-free. Suppose I might should update my 'about me' section too, to reflect that I've quit.
Well... I've decided perhaps starting a new blog might be in order, but I'll continue posting some to this one too. Not that I've really been doing a very good job at maintaining this blog anyway...lol. Hopefully I'll be better about posting to my new blog, The Cheese Box. If you happen upon this blog, feel free to hop over to The Cheese Box and see what I'm up to.

What is this?

Hey... who created this blog in my name? Why wasn't I informed? How do they know so much about me? And why aren't they updating it more frequently?

Haaaaahaaaaaahaaaaaaa...

Kidding...

Well... anyway...

What have I to say? Not much... so I won't... I'm really really tired.

I'm Deeply Disturbed...

From 'The War on Terror', to 'outsourcing', to the influence of 'the religious right' on American politics, I'm left wondering if I'm living in the country I thought I was. Am I not living in the United States of America, a country founded on the principles of individual liberty? A champion against oppression and exploitation? What happened to 'Make Love, Not War' and 'Made in America' and the seperation of church and state? My parents lied to me when I was growing up... they told me I was inheriting a better world than their parents had. My mother passed away in May of 2000... before Dubya ever stepped foot into office. I'm sure she's rolling over in her grave right now. Dad's still around... and still a proud Democrat... shaking his heads at the pseudo-Christian Republican war-mongers that are running this country and making global asses of US... all in the name of democracy and capitalistic principles. Fuck it... I'm going to build my own spaceship and go on a quest for another habitable planet where I can start my own society. I society where there will be only ONE law... The Golden Rule-- "Do unto others as you'd have them do unto you."